Perhaps this blog post is a little out of no where, but I just had to write it.
I feel neglected today. We are so close to moving home and closer to all those we love and miss and I am so OVER THE MOON about it, but I can't help but feel a little sadness. I just feel...neglected.
Don't get me wrong, I have friends who I talk to on a daily or weekly basis and I am so thankful to have such dear close friends. I love them with all my heart and when you get as lonely as I had been living here in New York and on my own everyday, having someone just send you a text makes your day. Just a simple "hey!" makes all the difference in the world.
And that being said I know that I have friends that I don't talk to as much as I'd like, but that doesn't mean we're anything less than. I don't know. Beau says sometimes I invest too much in relationships. There are times where I really think he's right just because I do honestly start to feel hurt and neglected when I put so much into a friendship and don't feel like I get it in return. Maybe I just worry too much, but I wish I were able to disconnect as easily as people disconnect from me. Hmmm...
Sorry to be a total Debbie. And with that I think I will take a hot shower and try to get past this icky feeling in my heart.